We snuck into the Marriott Hotel to use their fancy shitty bathroom but it had a keycard so we couldn’t so I stole some of their idiot orange lime water instead. Compliment this, bougie scum.
Honestly Oakland is pretty sketchy but not for the reasons commonly given I’m talking more the dystopian monolith that is the police department here
*holds up one of those PostSecret things* I ordered three banana pancakes but I was only really hungry for 2 *all american rejects plays*
also never forget this classic album I just found in the misc. scan images in a folder
He was delirious from not getting enough oxygen to the brain I bet he keeled over while carving the Whobeast and took off a chunk of Cindy Lou’s squashed up button nose
i took a really aggressive short bike ride to get rid of anxious jitters and ive really fallen in love with how the east bay looks at night.
I think occasionally about how I would look in them but a part of me always corrects the image, like, also puts me in army boots and adds a cigarette in my hand. “Now we’re cooking!”. Lord knows I have the body for it.
I’m a sad mess helping other sad messes clean up
Well, if its just during sex, its probably not indicative of any larger disorder hopefully (my stuff stems a lot from anxiety specifically)
But if it’s just during sex than it means you probably have a relationship with sex, with your partner(s?), with the situation of it that isn’t good for you.
For me, disassociation during sex usually stems from a specific issue of like, mild trauma getting set off or more specifically the idea of wanting the act to end but feeling powerless and like I have no way to voice it or that I can’t or that I won’t be able to. That’s the anxiety for me, a looming sense of helplessness in the situation to have any control or meaningful role in it, leading to me just kind of, withdraw in mentally and view it from the outside since I don’t feel like someone “in the moment”.
If you’re comfortable talking about it with your partner(s), you can see if there’s ways you can find a voice to assert a sense of control and autonomy in the situation, so that you can stop or change or move or do things if you need or want them.
If you’re not comfortable, it might be an issue with your partners, with the sex you’re having, with some aspect of it that isn’t making it the sex you want or that you don’t even want sex in the first place.
The brain is weird and these things are tiny little flags that you can follow all the way down to figure out what they’re trying to signify.